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Melissaah
day 2

Hey girls. I'm on day two. I've been pretty busy with my son. Poor guy has a cold and an ear infection. He was up ALL night with a cough. Which means I was up ALL night. Plus I'm sick too and we've been up since 3 am. I'm a bit tired but overall pretty good. I'm hoping tomorrow will be day three for me. I just need to really be focused and keep my mind busy ate the same time.

Melissaah
Lday 2

Hey girls. Today has been a good day. No binging or purging. If I make it through the night I will have 3 days tomorrow. Then it's just one more day after tomorrow that I'll have more non purge day's in a long time. I think I might actually get to day three tomorrow. There is one thing that is bugging me and I know I shouldn't let it get to me but someone posted about taking stuff to help their ED behaviours pretty much. And it's not the first time it's happened. I honestly started thing maybe if I did that I will lose weight. It's sick thinking and I'm usually able to get it in my head that, that is WAY dangerous. So I really won't do it. But it gave my eating disorder an idea to keep ED around. If any of that makes sense.

Melissaah
Day3

Hey girls haven't heard from you in a couple days. I'm finally on day 3. Yeah!! Hope you girls are doing well.

whitershade
Day 37

Everything is fine here, I've been caught in the holiday organization madness, so that's why I haven't updated here in some days. Anyway, I'm soooo happy for your progress Melissa! Hope your husband is feeling better :-(
Hugs***

Melissaah
Day4

Hey girls, I'm finally on day four! I can't believe it. Now I just have to keep it going.d

whitershade
Day 38

Melissa, I'm so happy! Day four is probably one of the hardest to conquer, once you've passed it you'll feel unstoppable:-)

Melissaah
Thank you

Thank you girls for the support. I would have never even tried this challenge if you never brought it up. That and seeing you make it gave me the courage to try to not purge too. So thank you again for your support.

Melissaah
Night of day 4

Hey girls, it's about 5 pm where I'm at and I'm having major urges to binge. What's worse is I found the binge food I gave my husband to hide. I don't know if I should tell him. If he found out I was poking around for the food he will never trust me again. I'm feeling like I'm a liar and cheat.

brookespre
Day 27

Hey girls, sorry I haven't been catching up the past few days! I've been busy with holiday craziness, and unfortunately a close relative of mine passed away yesterday morning after his horrible battle with bladder cancer. I am hanging in there though, and it just makes me want to appreciate my life and treat my body well even more, because before we know it we will be old and frail and wishing that we had our youth back. I guess this has been especially hard because he shared my love of running and would always ask about my races and even watched me race one very recently.

Congrats Melissaah!!!! That is so awesome how far you have come these past few days. Be very proud! And whitershade, I hope you are doing well too! Try not to get too stressed out with all of the holiday craziness, because that's when ED likes to peek his head out and try to ruin things. Hope everyone has a good day!

Melissaah
Day 5

Yeah day 5. I really didn't think I'd get this far. Especially when you haven't had a good night's rest in over 5 days. My son has been sick and is keeping me up at night. So I'm surprised I'm here. I already ate a good breakfast to start my day off well. Hope you girls have a good day!

Melissaah
Unfortunately I'm back to day

Unfortunately I'm back to day one tomorrow. I had a slip. I hope this doesn't set me up to continue to binge and purge. Hope you girls are doing well

brookespre
Day 0

Hey girls, unfortunately I am also back to Day 1 tomorrow. I had a bit of a slip up today and purged, but I am not really that upset about it I guess. I mean I hate that I purged and I feel awful for doing it, but I don't feel like I am going to go off the rails into a full-blown relapse or anything. I am going to eat a normal dinner tonight and not be too hard on myself. I feel a calm that I haven't felt in some time. Like I know that I messed up, but I know that I am still very strong in my recovery, and little things like this will happen. I made it a long time without purging, so messing up once in a while isn't the end of the world. I am learning from my mistakes, and I know to avoid this certain trigger next time!

Melissaah, you should be so proud of yourself for going as long as you did. Don't let this throw you off, just get back on track today and don't even think about it. Maybe write down what caused you to purge this time, and keep it as a little note or reminder to avoid that situation. Regardless, you are doing great :)

Have a great day girls!

Melissaah
day 0

Hi girls, on day zero with you brookespre. Hopefully we can get back on the wagon and continue to get better. Though I purged this morning I still ate a healthy lunch following it. We can get this. Have a good day.

Mady1012
Don't get discouraged

Hi girls!

Melissa and Brookespre, you should both be so proud of how far you have come and how much you are trying to keep fighting. Some days will be more difficult, but that fact that you girls are still pushiing despite the difficulties i awesome! Keep taking one day at a time and moving forward, we are all human and make mistakes. I believe in you girls! Keep it up! I hope everyone enjoys the holidays (:

Mady

Melissaah
Hey girls. Day one today. It

Hey girls. Day one today. It's the end of the day and everything is going well. Hope you girls had a good day

Melissaah
day 2

Hey girls hope all is going well. I'm on day two again. My son woke up at 3:30 this morning and I'm having urges to binge. It's that or urges to not eat. My head is so confused. Just hoping I can get through a healthy day.

Mady1012
You can do this!

Hi Melissaah!

You can get through it! Keep taking baby steps, and finding productive and positive things to do that may distract you from wanting to engage in these behaviors or talk to someone. You are making progress and I know you can keep going. Hang in there, I am rooting for you! I hope you are feeling better and have a good day.

Mady

Melissaah
Day 6

Hey girls. I've been so busy I haven't been able to respond. Any on day 6 now. Each and every time I go a little bit longer without purging. Hope you girls are doing well. Have a good day :)

Cosmia
Congrats Melissaah!!!

That's amazing! I remember how frustrated you were when you were stuck at Day 1. Look at the progress you've made :)

Melissaah
Day 8

Thanks cosmia. It hasn't been easy but some days are better than others. Thanks again for your support

ninjabreadman
I felt immediately attracted to your post

I'd like to try as well. My 25th birthday is in a few weeks. I have been messing around with ed since age 8. Tomorrow is Thursday, my day one. Thanks for extending a supportive hand.

Wanttogetbetter
day 1

Hi ninjabreadman, welcome to the group. I am on day one again as well. I've been trying to do this from the beginning. I just changed my username so you can't tell.

Melissa

Wanttogetbetter
day 1

Hi ninjabreadman, welcome to the group. I am on day one again as well. I've been trying to do this from the beginning. I just changed my username so you can't tell.

Melissa

whitershade
Day 0 again and again and again

I don't know if there will be someone reading this post...Anyway, I've started this topic but I didn't write here anymore, a lot of stuff happened this year...Anyway I did it. I Made till 121 days, and then I relapsed and kept relapsing for all these months. But I want to commit again. I feel alone, I need a net, and this place seems to offer One. So..day 0 again...hope to feel better tomorrow.

whitershade
Day 1

Ok, despite a sleepless night I'm okay. My boyfriend cooked lunch for me, I loved that! I spent the night writing and studying, hope this day will going on safe and sober.

3kids2dogs1cat
Bravo!

Hi whitershade. I was not reading the forum during the earlier days of this thread, but I wanted to jump in and congratulate you on recommitting fully to your recovery. I know very well that working towards recovery is not easy, and rarely follows a straight line -- often something like a roller coaster. I hope that you're compassionate with yourself about your relapse after the 121 days. What really matters is that you've pulled yourself back up off the ground to get moving forward again. To state the obvious, it's the only way to move forward and leave the misery behind. I hope that you keep posting and letting us know how it's going.

whitershade
I'm so angry with myself

Of course I fell. After two very good days, it's almost 24 hours that I am binging and purging again...
I need help...I need an accountability system, and to take responsibility....
I'm so over it...

Adage
Hey whitershade. Please try

Hey whitershade. Please try not to be too hard on yourself.
As I'm sure you're aware of, recovery is a process and it can be a long one.
There are bound to be ups and downs and even relapses, but your posting here shows your dedication to getting better.
Perseverance is the key to long term success.
Do you have a support network? Many people chose to make theirs out of a therapist, dietician, doctor, and or close family friends.
How's yours if you have one?

https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/slips-lapses-and-relapses
http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/stories-of-hope
And don't forget that NEDA has a helpline that you can call (its to the left side of the screen).
We're rooting for you.

- Adage

fh012345
advice

Im in recovery. I've had a relapse binging and purging the last two/three days. Need some help with urge surfing. feeling quite emotionally weak at the moment it takes a lot of emotional energy to stop a binge...I also suffer from depression and anxiety. I am finding that I am feeling very tired and just want to sleep mostly. Everyday tasks feel like an effort however im pushing myself so that things get sorted. I also suffer from hyperthermia linked with my eating disorder so my normal body temperature is between 34-36 degrees. Thats something that isnt going to change at anypoint. I was just wondering if anyone was in the same position and if so how the cope with it. I am urge surfing and at points it feels like a struggle. I am eating multivitamins.any help/advice appreciated. thanks

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liz489
Welcome fh012345

Hi fh012345,

It sounds like you are going through a difficult time. You have definitely come to the right place for support! Welcome to the community.

I can relate to the tiredness and emotional vulnerability that you are describing. Both those things can be debilitating! For me, working with a team of professionals over an extended period of time to normalize my habits and get me back on a regular schedule helped to reduce both symptoms. In the beginning there were a lot of times when I felt like I was forcing myself to get up, get out and have energy, but over time, with consistency, I started to really feel that energy return.

The critical component for me was having the right team of people to help me get there. Are you seeing a therapist and / or nutritionist at the moment? If not, I would highly recommend try to find someone who can support you right now.

As well, I would encourage you to give the NEDA Helpline a call. The trained helpline volunteers can get you in touch with resources in your area and/or just lend an ear. The number is: 1-800-931-2237 and they're available Monday-Thursday from 9:00 am - 9:00 pm and Friday from 9:00 am - 5:00 pm (EST).

Hang in there! Know that you have multiple avenues for support through NEDA. Please continue to keep us updated here.

Liz

saucey7
In my sixth year of recovery....

I am struggling with binging. This was so uncommon and almost non existent during my actual struggle with anorexia and my first few years of recovery, but over the last year it has become quite an issue as I use it as my coping mechanism "choice of self harm." I know this may be hard to comprehend, my using binging as self harm, but it is in fact the case. I am sorry I am new to this forum as it started last year, but I was wondering if I might join the 100 day challenge...being held accountable for my binging behaviors rather than purging. I have read the all of the posts thus far, and wow...you ladies are amazing, strong, courageous, and compassionate. Maybe one day soon, I can be the recipient of these rare gifts and give back in return. Thank you for your time, and have a beautiful week.

All the best, Rebecca

lovetowrite81
Hi Saucey7!

Hi Saucey7!

Thank you so much for your post! I just wanted to welcome you here and let you know that there is always support to be found in this community. I am sorry to hear that binge eating has become a new struggle that has emerged for you. I can definitely relate, as it is quite common to sway from restrictive behavior to binge eating- and I agree that this is a certainly an avenue of self harm. We would love to have you join the 100 Day Challenge.

I also wanted to check in and see if you have any form of professional help alongside you? I believe this could be very helpful on your recovery journey. The NEDA helpline is also available and is a wonderful resource: the number is 1-800-931-2237 and is available for you Monday-Thursday from 9:00 am - 9:00 pm and Friday from 9:00 am - 5:00 pm (EST).

Again, welcome and please keep us posted on how you're doing! :)
-Lovetowrite81

saatzee
Beautiful

Hi,
I'm going to have some blind faith and say, I'm in! Today is just like a thousand other days, still it could be the beginning of 100 days I go to bed knowing I let myself keep everything I ingest! Purging is such violence and no one deserves this. I'm am committing to join your 100 days. Happy November 11, day 1!

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