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Savedbygrace
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To go to a church function that will have light refreshments. Considering my increasing use of behaviors. I'm mixed. On one hand, I'm looking forward to it, on the other hand, I'm nervous about using behaviors while there. My husband is working, so it will just be me. I see my husband for dinner later. So far I haven't had anything today, other than communion. Prayers would be appreciated. I've got counseling Tuesday.

iwanttolive
Savedbygrace

Hi. I am glad to hear you are going to a church function. I was wondering if you would not post so much about your behavior of chewing and spitting. It is difficult for me to keep seeing the imagery of that as I once struggled with that for a while. Would you be able to replace the wording and say you are using behaviors? I hope this does not offend you or make you not post. Not my intent. I just find it upsetting to be hearing of it and I hope you understand why I am asking you this. I thank you for reading this. I hope you enjoyed the gathering after church. Thank you for all your support you offer to this community on this forum. Hang in there and I truly hope things turn around for you.
iwanttolive

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

How did the church function go? I can definitely understand your anxiety around it but know you are so strong <3 Thinking of you today. How are you feeling about counseling on Tues?

Savedbygrace
How it went

It was good, but I acted on symptoms. Then I acted on them again at dinner. I feel light headed right now.
I think counseling will be good. Hopefully it's only a month until I go inpatient. I need it.
How are you doing?

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

I hope you are feeling better & having a good day today. I'm glad that you recognize your need for inpatient and will be able to make that happen soon. Doing okay, thank you for asking! I'm going through a break-up and just really focusing on finding myself outside of a relationship w/ a man which is difficult for me. But I'm trying.

Savedbygrace
Sorry to hear

Today I ended up acting on 3 symptoms. I haven't done one of them in a couple weeks. Break ups are never easy. It's good you are trying to find yourself. I hope the one symptom I used that I haven't used in a while won't happen more frequently. I used to struggle with bulimia and I just don't want to keep slipping and wind up doing it every day, much less multiple times per day.

iwanttolive
Savedbygrace

Hi there, I am sorry you are struggling so much. It isn't easy to recover, I know. But keep working at it. Keep your eyes on God. Continue to ask Him for support.

I thank you for changing up your wording, I hope you are okay with me asking that. I want to respect your need to say what is going on with you but also using different wording. I appreciate that you were able to do that. So thank you.
There are several people like Joyce Meyers and Beth Moore who went through similar but not the same abuse you experienced. Beth is very spunky and does lots of Bible studies. They usually take about forty minutes a day and they give you a five day week so if you don't finish in one day you can catch up on another. "raying God's Word" is a great book of prayers for various issues. You might like that.

I hope you have a good night's rest. Take care, and continue to post for support.
iwanttolive

London1621
Hi

Sending you hugs.