National Eating Disorders Association

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Savedbygrace
Why

Did my dad do all that he did to me? Why did GOD do nothing to stop it? My past is making me nauseated. I want to purge but I'm trying not to. The memories are so graphic and intense. I hope I don't have any nightmares tonight. I'm feeling so self conscious about my body. I want to throw up.

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

I'm so sorry for the flashbacks you are having and the horrendous things that have happened to you. I don't have an answer for why your dad would do the sickening things he did. But I do know that it has something to do with the fact that people are broken & sinful. Our God is loving and good. He is for us and not against us. There is no evil in him. But unfortunately there is evil in the world. God did give us free-will which means that people do horrible things and that's just the reality of the world we live in until we reach heaven. I just want you to know that God sees all of your pain. He has been with you through all of it. And His heart absolutely breaks for you and what you have had to endure. But I know He is going to use it for good. What the enemy tries to use to destroy us, God wants to redeem and make new. I know that He is cultivating in you a deeper dependence on Him & an empathy that is going to help so many others in their pain as well. You are such a resilient person and I am so excited to continue to watch you grow & thrive as God intended for you <3

Savedbygrace
Thank you so much

For your words. They have truly touched me. My heart is breaking right now. I'm remembering a lot right now.

lovetowrite81
<3

Of course- we are here for you <3 I'm so sorry you are hurting. How are you feeling today?

Savedbygrace
Lately

I have woken up in a deep depression after intense nightmares. After waking up, all I want to do is sleep the day away.

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

I'm sorry to hear that the nightmares have been so bad recently. I pray you will be able to get some relief soon <3

London1621
Lots of Hugs

I'm really sorry you are having a hard time. I hope you will be ok soon. Lots of hugs.