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euphonise
weight restored, what next?

Hi all :) I've been in genuine recovery for 9 months following a really awful relapse October last year (I also relapsed the same time the year before and my ed has been going on since I was 13). I never actually felt like my anorexia has been that severe due to not getting much medical help/not being taken seriously by my parents etc (I live in Australia, where I'm located there is not many resources unless your parents drag you to the local hospital) and so I've constantly just battled with myself over the years relapsing and recovering over and over, never feeling valid.
I didn't feel like it was all that serious though my last relapse since it was only a few months and I didn't hit a severely low bmi, I lost a lot of weight from a higher weight from overshooting last time. I acknowledge I was ill and greatly suffering but for some reason the guidelines for recovery feel like they don't apply to me. I think I've become too exposed to stereotypes and comparing myself to other people's recovery experience. I was never hospitalised and I recovered on my own because I've always been very independent and am an adult (21) so my parents let me do my own thing (I was in therapy for my depression but my therapist was really unhelpful anorexia wise so I just stopped seeing her completely).
I've been weight restored with a healthy bmi for 8 or so months and I've been doing pretty well but I have been struggling with never ending fatigue that weighs me down every day no matter how much I rest!! I feel terrible! I go to bed at 8pm, I drink enoug water, I eat a healthy amount of calories a day and nothing seems to change.
I can't find much information out there for recovery AFTER weight gain, for what to do when you've been recovered for a few months and you're physically stable- how much to eat, if exercising is fine etc.
Any help would be so appreciated!! Thank you :)

I can't find much information out there for recovery AFTER weight gain, for what to do when you've been recovered for a few months and you're physically stable- how much to eat, if exercising is fine etc.

Any help would be so appreciated!! Thank you :)

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Hi euphonise, welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing! Your post has been edited to take out any weight related numbers that might be triggering to other forum members. You can find our guidelines here: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/community-guidelines Please keep posting!

iwanttolive
euphonise

Hi. First I want to congratulate you on your recovery. And doing it alone had to have been very difficult. About what happens when in recovery? For me, I try to help people who post here at NEDA. I am learning to accept my weight. It is higher than before, but I don't have the need to binge or restrict. I am free from the mental torment. For me, I want to educate people, be a spokesperson, and am currently working on a documentary with my former dietician.

What did you used to like to do, that you enjoyed that you were unable to do when ill. And the degree of illness is not measured by a BMI or a number. The mental torment, the fear associated with eating, body image distortion. There are more but that is good for now. I am sorry you live in an area that doesn't provide help for those who suffer from eating disorders because I can assure you that there are many others that are struggling as you have.

How is your depression now? I am happy you found us and encourage you to post when you need to but you can also help others here and share your story of recovery. Everyone recovers differently, as we are all unique and special and recovery is just as diverse. Again, I am happy you found us. I hope some of what I said proves to be helpful. Take care and hope to see you again.
iwanttolive

justgina
Hi euphonise!

First of all, welcome to the forums! We're so glad you found us. :) I had a similar story - I struggled a lot throughout high school, but I never went to treatment for my anorexia, and I think it made me feel as though my problem was less severe, even though it wasn't. I began therapy finally, and that made a huge difference for me. Maybe you could try finding a new therapist who you find to be more helpful than the last one? :)
I'm not a medical professional of course, but I do know that recovery can take quite awhile in terms of your body regulating everything. Congratulations on reaching a healthy weight, and staying there for 8 months and counting! That's amazing. My advice would be to try listening to your body more and more each day on how much food it needs. Be mindful during meals and mindful of how you feel throughout the day. That's something I still work on every day, and I find it really helpful! As for exercise, personally I began exercise again once I felt I was doing it for the right reasons - to feel stronger and healthier versus only to lose weight like I'd been doing before. I hope that helps. Take care and keep posting! <3

London1621
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I sorry you are having a hard time. Lots of hugs