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catsandratsandbats
Weight gain, depression, loneliness, and hopelessness

Hi. I started being serious about recovery about two weeks ago and I am having a very hard time and I don't know where to go.

I am not underweight anymore as I'm very small and gained it all back within two weeks after restricting for years and more severely the past year when I hit my lowest weight.

Today I put on a pair of pants for work after wearing dresses the past few weeks and they were extremely tight and caused me to break down completely. I feel like I don't know where to go. I'm always hungry but I'm gaining more and more weight and I don't need to anymore. I've been having issues with body image and have used disordered eating behaviors this past week.

Does anyone have any advice on how to be okay with weight gain or how to cope with these emotions or deal with the bloating or hunger? I've been researching and reading so much but I feel like this isn't normal when logically I know it is and am just looking for advice.

Thank you so much for reading this and for any advice.

chunkymonkey68
Clothing Material Shrinks over time too

If that makes you feel any better. When we 1st renurish it seems to be 1st water and salt retention.

In my case that makes me feel like Templeton the Rat too. But after this phase of water retention, if you add a light walk daily and dont get obsessed over exercise, just a walk to thank God that ya got some legs to enjoy the outdoors with.

Then the water gain will equal out more quickly and you will tome up and feel better about making a healthy change and taking control.

Good Luck and Healthiness in your ED recovery.

julesthefox
Been there

I'm so sorry it's so hard to deal with. I, and I'm sure many on this forum, can relate to the struggle of changing bodies and body image. You are doing so well though! Congratulations on your amazing recovery! Never forget, no matter how you feel, how amazing you are for continuing to fight ED. You are beautiful and amazing.
As far as feeling so hungry, I actually experienced the same thing. It seems like when you're fresh into/out of recovery, appetite skyrockets. Your body is probably just repairing what was hurt during the ED and restabilizing itself to get to a healthy, comfortable weight. I know how hard that is to deal with, especially when clothes don't fit. One of the things I've found helpful for me is to simply ditch my wardrobe (as much as I can considering finances). Even if things still fit, they may fit differently. Not only does that happen for ED recovery, but it is COMPLETELY NORMAL for ALL bodies to change over time! The differences might look fine, even great, but could be potentially triggering. I know they were/are for me. Considering your amazing recovery progress, I'd say it's high time to treat yourself to new, great-looking clothes that make you feel good!!!
If you have any specific questions, I would talk to a doctor or nutritionist who specializes in eating disorders. They may be able to give you better guidance for continued recovery. I would also see if you could talk to a therapist. I've recently begun working with mine, and one of the topics we're hoping to address is body image. They are here to help. You deserve the best.
Stay strong beautiful!
Julesthefox

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Hi catsandratsandbats! Thanks for reaching out for support here on the NEDA forums. Your post has been edited slightly due to the mention of disordered eating behaviors and negative self-talk. Please keep in mind that these forums are public, so we ask that you avoid posting content that may be triggering to other forum members.

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Again, thanks for posting and we hope you continue to do so! Remember that you're not alone and that we're here for you :)

klanza
Hey catsandratsandbats,

Hey catsandratsandbats, congrats on starting the path to recovery! I know it's easy to get discouraged, but recovery is about progress and not perfection, so it's perfectly normal to have ups and downs during your journey. You just have to remember to be kind to yourself and never lose hope. We're all here for you!

I've found these tips for starting to develop a positive body image to be really helpful, so maybe they can help you in some way too: https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/learn/general-information/ten-steps

catsandratsandbats
Thank you so much you guys. I

Thank you so much you guys. I wrote out a response this morning but I don't think it posted. I really appreciate it it's really comforting to know that there are other real people that is going through or went through this as well. I can't tell you how much your words helped me today and I will keep them in my head. I can't thank you enough. Thank you for being so kind.

lovetowrite81
Catsandratsandbats

Hello catsandratsandbats!

I have been following your thread & just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you. How are you feeling this week?

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