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girlwhenquiet
"Overweight" Recovering Weight Gain

I am trying to be as vague as possible and I am NOT using numbers of any kind. However, please take care of yourself first and @ the mods: I understand if this post needs to be edited.

I have always had a body that is classified as heavier, although I do not often appear it from family comments and others too. My mom has dense bones and I assume its the same for myself based off this experience. My body also begins being symptomatic of being underweight at a weight still classified as the higher end of normal. All of that to say, I recently gained to my highest weight from my most recent attempt at recovery. Because of this, I've been triggered a bit to slip and use behaviors.

I'm so distressed by this weight gain but I honestly do not want to give up my progress in recovery because of this. I am fighting myself so hard to stay strong, but it's difficult and I feel so worthless right now.

Another vent. I apologize, but I'm grateful to have a place to express these fears.

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Girlwhenquiet

Hi Girlwhenquiet,
Thank you so much for sharing-- I apologize for the late reply. First of all, just wanted to congratulate you on the progress you have made in your recovery thus far- that truly deserves to be celebrated. You are wonderful! Keep up the amazing work <3
I hope you are not being too hard on yourself on these thoughts. Many of us can relate to having anxiety around weight gain in recovery. You are not alone in that. I just want to encourage you that your worth is not in what you weigh. You are so much more than that. You have been created flawlessly, beautifully- and are meant for such an incredible purpose. I know that's hard to see right now in the midst of distress, I want you to know that & hope you can begin to believe it.
You are so strong and I know you can work through these urges to act on behaviors. Do you have a strong support network? Are you currently working with a therapist or other professional to help you to process these thoughts and emotions? Leaning into this support will be so important in getting through this hurdle. What coping mechanisms have you found helpful in your recovery thus far?
Know that we are always here for you in this community <3 So glad that you are here. I will be thinking of you this weekend and hope to hear from you again soon. Hang in there. You are so strong!