National Eating Disorders Association

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London1621
Not myself

I don't know what is going on, I am not feeling like myself today. I feel like I want to binge eat and it took me forever to eat my breakfast, I hate feeling like this. I wish I could just wake up and this eating disorder is gone forever! Sometimes it's too much for me.

rach898
London1621

Hi London1621! I'm so sorry you are not feeling great today. Did something happen to trigger these emotions? I understand that your ED can be extremely frustrating, but you gotta take one step at a time. It's can be a long road to recovery, but it is important to try to stay positive and not give up hope. We are all here for you :)

iwanttolive
London1621

Hi. I am just checking in to see how things are going. I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
You said you wishes you could Wake up one day and not have the eating disorder anymore I wish it worked that way. But I know
Recovery iS possible. for now
keep reaching out for support and "ride the wave" A DBT skill.
I am glad to see you asking for it. Take
Care and let us know how things go.

London1621
Thank you

Thank you both for what you are saying. Late last night my parents and sister were yelling back and forth. And it was still happening this morning before I went to school. This upsets me, and makes me feel like binge eating.

lovetowrite81
London1621

Hi London,
Just wanted to check in & see how the rest of your weekend went? I can totally understand how family conflict could be triggering. I am proud of you for continuing to choose not to use behaviors. You are so strong. How wonderful it would be if we could all wake up without ED. Unfortunately recovery is a long, complex process but you are walking it one day at a time. Keep us posted <3 Thinking of you!

iwanttolive
London1621

Hi. I am sorry if my first response was short and abrupt. I was nervous that my tablet was going to cause me to lose what I was saying. I understand to a point about fighting in the home.y parent's usually don't fight a lot but it is upsetting when I see my mom putting my dad down.
I live with a lot of tension and fear due to my sister and it is not easy. So in that sense I understand how difficult it is to live in a stressful environment. I am sorry that your environment is so tense. I am learning to let her alone. Engage when she wants to. If she criticises me I let it go without responding. I am learning. She doesn't like when I don't respond but am told she will eventually learn that her abusive behavior isn't working anymore. So I want to encourage you that as powerful as an eating disorder is, recovery is possible. I am into eight months after thirty years. I never thought it possible I but it is. May I ask if you believe in Jesus, and ask and involve Him in your recovery? I know that without Him I would not be here.

Well I hope you are feeling a bit better. Have you been able to eat today? Take care, iwanttolive

London1621
Thank you

It's getting a little bit better. Thank you. I'm still having up and down days, but that's going to always happen.

iwanttolive
London1621

Hi. It is good to hear you are doing a little better. Any steps forward should never be discounted. My Mom and I have this thing with turtles. She started it by giving me a turtle beanie baby. When I turned 49 I said I didn't want to celebrate my birthday. She was saddened by this as she said but I gave birth to you. Later in the week at Kohl's I saw a turtle pendant and bought it for my Mom and thanked her for giving birth to me. A few days later she bought me the same one and I haven't taken mine off since. The turtle, of which I now have many!!! indicates slow progression forward. And sometimes the turtle takes a break and pulls his head inside his shell. When I was a kid I once held a real turtle and being a kid, I growled at it, up close. It bit my lip and didn't want to let go!!! Anyways, the point is that a slow and steady pace is the best way to heal. And if necessary, retreat for a breather but not too long. Count every step forward with a pat on the back. And yes, sometimes we take a step backwards. But that is okay too. Those steps backwards do not negate the forward steps taken.

I am glad things are a little better. Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
iwanttolive