National Eating Disorders Association

3 posts / 0 new
Last post
1Bluerose68
My 1st Month NOT on DISABILITY

I feel kind of pressured as i now must work Every Day and Immerse Myself in the Typical Yuppie Stress of working Daily just to survive at home paying bills and coming home to endless chores. In spite of the fact that, even though the system has abruptly weaned me from my Disability support, I feel more amuck then when I was on Disability. I can't step down from, "My Shoe Pavillion" right now. I need to survive and must go on like everyone else does in the Real World. I know i have a secret ; my secret is that I am Not perfect, and do have health issues, and succumb to stress more so than others. I must be tight lipped about all this now, and survive on No Disability, and 100% Hard Work. At least this cold ocean water like shock has helped to induce my period after 2 months of amenorrhea, or whatever that was????

s.boewer
It will be okay

I made the transition from disability to the working world several months ago so I understand what you are feeling. I really didn't feel well enough to be turned loose at the time and it was scary to face all of the responsibilities coming at me. I found that if I make self-care a priority I am able to handle everything in my busy day. If I need to lay around an entire day and rest on my day off, then that's what I do. Chores and paperwork can wait if I am not up to taking care of those things on the days I don't work. Most important to succeeding off of disability and in the work-world, is that I put my recovery first, above all else. I never forget I need to take care of my recovery from ED if I want to function in other areas of my life. I journal, make time for therapy, exercise, eat healthy meals, attend 12-step meetings and practice the tools I am learning in all of those things daily so that I keep growing in my self-esteem and confidence. If you were able to heal while you were on disability you can build on that progress even though you have more responsibilities and life will become more hectic. Try to look at things with a positive outlook and be grateful for the time you had to heal while on disability instead of seeing it as a negative thing. perspective can make all the difference sometimes I have found, and choosing to face challenges with optimism always helps me get through whatever it is. I'm sorry you are feeling so down about this change, it's no fun being discouraged about the way life is going and can cause depression. I hope it all works out for you and you can balance your self-care with your work obligations so you can recover completely from your disability. It is possible so don't give up!

iwanttolive
1Bluerose68

Hi and welcome to the forum. I was just wondering how you are doing? I worry about being taken off my disability. I work part time, about ten to fourteen hours a week and that seems to be all about what I can handle. I don't know much about what to say except to take each day as it comes, focus on the here and now. Try not to look too far ahead and get over worried about the week ahead but take it one day at a time, as the saying goes. For me in my everyday life I need to do this. It used to be I couldn't deal with facing another week to live. I was struggling so much each day that a week was overwhelming. Now I am not afraid of another week. My user name is iwanttolive. I never did for such a long time. Fear overwhelmed most days. But God changed that for me and now I am looking forward to new days. I have a lot stress in my life but so do most people and we learn to manage it. I hope that you can stay focused on your recovery, and take this challenge and look at it and face it and know that with help, you can do this. It is a fear of mine, being taken off disability. I don't know how I would deal with it, so I am giving you my best suggestions. I wish you the best in this next leg of your journey.

How have you been since you posted? Keep posting and reaching out for support.

iwanttolive