National Eating Disorders Association

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London1621
Low point tonight!!

I have hit a low point today. All day I have had the feeling to binge eat and it's not going away. I don't know if it's because I'm still upset about the person who passed away from cancer and that's why I want to binge eat. Or if it's something else. I just hurt so much. I really wish I didn't feel like this. What is wrong with me? Why can't this feeling go away?

iwanttolive
London1621

Hi there, I just want to say hi and that I feel badly for you that life has been so difficult for you. I have no magic words to make your pain go away but I do want to say it isn't your fault and there is nothing wrong with you. Have you gone to God/Jesus about your pain. He wants to help you and comfort you. For me I wouldn't be alive and I would still be using behaviours but because I stuck with Him and He never have up on me even when I wanted to give up, He never let go of me. So I was just wondering if God is in the picture anywhere. I wish you a good night's sleep.

DSTEELE14
London1621

Hello,

So sorry for your loss. Don't be hard on yourself. I am not a therapist but, when I lost my mom I suddenly reverted to eating behaviors and my therapist said it often is a trigger. I agree with the response above if Christ is in your life I pray he gives you rest. Sometimes you need humans to help you along the way too. I hope you have a therapist that can help. I went 3 times a week for two years when my mom passed away. You need somewhere safe to talk to people who understand the things you are facing. If you do not have a therapist please look for a support group. The therapist can give you advice/ exercises for relaxation and that will help with sleep and the urges. -- Rest well

London1621
Thank you

Thank you both for what you are saying. I know you said to ask God for help when I want to binge eat, sometimes I feel too ashamed to ask him or anyone else for help with this. I wish I could just wake up and it's gone and I don't have to deal with this problem ever again, but it's not like that.

lovetowrite81
London1621

Hi London-

Just wanted to check in & see how you are feeling? Unfortunately so much of what keeps our ED thriving is shame, secrecy, and isolation. I just want you to know that you can come before God wherever you're at. He doesn't look at you through a lens of condemnation or shame- He looks at you as His beloved child, wonderfully made in His image. And wants nothing more than you to draw near to Him in times of struggle or despair. Like you mentioned, the problem isn't going to vanish, but we can seek God in the midst of it & seek out support from others. You will never be shamed or judged here. I want you to know that ED is not your fault. You did not choose it. Unfortunately mental health is full of so much judgment, shame, and stigma around it, but it shouldn't be. Opening up and talking about our mental health issues does so much to stop ED in its tracks- just bringing it into the light, out of the secrecy and shame. Keep fighting the good fight, my friend <3

-Lovetowrite81

chunkymonkey68
A Loss of a lose friend or relative is difficult

The grieving process may last a few yrs even. Support groups help. I tried 1 but wasn't comfortable w/ it. I hope you allow yourself to accept theses losses and dont be afraid to grieve either.

London1621
Thank you

Thank you both for what you are saying. I understand what you are saying about God, I will try to ask him for more help. I don't know what is going on with me,but sometimes I have the feeling to binge eat, then when it's time for dinner I don't want to eat. I don't know what to do with this.

lovetowrite81
London1621

It could be that often the urge to binge eat is an attempt to cope or fill emotional hunger-
but not physical hunger. When it comes time for meals, do you not feel physically hungry either or just do not want to eat? These are interesting observations & I'm glad you are self-aware of it all. Try to be gentle with yourself-- you are doing the best you can <3

London1621
Thank you

I just don't feel hunger and I look at the food and some days it's hard to eat. I don't know.

London1621
Need the feeling to go away.

I need this feeling to binge eat to go away. Why am I having such a hard time with this?

lovetowrite81
London1621

Hi London- I'm sorry you are struggling. You are having a difficult time because you have a mental illness & you did not choose it. Please try to be gentle with yourself and do not blame yourself for how you feel. What is wonderful is that despite the urge, you have managed to not give into binge eating behavior. What a win. Have you been able to work through and process some of the emotions that have led to the urge? I know you had been experiencing some family tension with your sister. Have you gotten to journal any more recently? Praying for you and thinking of you <3

London1621
Hi lovetowrite81

Thank you for what you are saying. No I haven't been writing in my journal.I will try that again to see if that helps.

lovetowrite81
London1621

How are you feeling today London? <3 Thinking of you!

London1621
Hi

I'm doing ok today, thank you. How are you doing?

lovetowrite81
London1621

I am glad to hear that:) I am doing alright, thank you for asking!