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iwanttolive
lovetowrite81

Hi, it is iwanttolive. Just wondering how you are. You give out so much encouragement that I wanted to see how you are doing. How are you? How did you come into the place you are now in with your recovery? You inspire a lot of us here. Thank you. Have a nice day.

iwanttolive

lovetowrite81
Iwanttolive

Hi Iwanttolive,

Thank you so much for your kind words & for reaching out. It means a lot to me :) I am doing alright! This has been a stressful week for me, as one of my clients passed away at the mental health facility I work at which has hit me pretty hard. I have also been dealing with some really complex issues in my relationship with my boyfriend. So it's been quite a bit stressful for me & my emotional and mental energy is at about 0. So drained and exhausted with it all sometimes.

Overall though, I am so grateful that I am going on 3 years of no behaviors! Sometimes it seems like so long ago when I was in the throws of my ED, but in working as a peer support specialist, I'm reminded that recovery is something to constantly be aware of & maintaining. Exploring the underlying roots of my ED & other harmful behaviors in my life in therapy has been central to my recovery. I continue to meet with my therapist twice a week even now. As well as nurturing my faith and being aware that my spiritual state directly affects where I may be turning to other places to fulfill what only God can. Having a strong support system has been crucial as well. I haven't had the urge to engage in behaviors for so long, I have been stable in that regard- but you never know what new stressor could come so all I can do is continue to be dependent on God in whatever season may come.

Thank you so much again for asking about me! I hope you are having a lovely week <3

-Lovetowrite81

iwanttolive
Hi lovetowrite81

Hello. I am so sorry for the loss of a client. Death is never easy. I will pray the issues you are having with your boyfriend will straighten out and you both come to a mutual understanding of the problems and are able to work them out.

It is so good to hear three years. I am into or just starting my eight month, even amidst super stressful living situations. It is also because of my faith and finally surrendering the eating disorders and self harm to Jesus that real transformation has finally taking root. I have had to deal with a lot and before now, it would have landed my butt back into another hospital. I am working on living a surrendered life. It really helps.

I wish I could see my Psychologist more but she feels I only need once a week now. She has very strict boundaries, won't put her arm on my shoulder, has no contact information except to leave a message at the front desk and if she feels it is important enough she will call me back.. I am used to having an e mail or voice mail to be in touch but she doesn't do that. I feel being with her has helped me a lot though.

I say stay close to God and we can be strong only because of Him. When we are weak then He is strong and gives us strength.

You have a lot to offer. I am glad you are working with people. I hope your problems with your boyfriend improve, and that you continue on your healing process.

Take care and good night.

iwanttolive

justgina
iwanttolive

Hi iwanttolive - congratulations on starting your 8th month free of behaviors, that's awesome! I agree, surrendering and realizing that we can't maintain constant control over every piece of our lives is one of the hardest steps, but one of the most important. Life is so unpredictable, in good ways and bad, and EDs only hold us back from being able to roll with those changes. You are strong and your story is inspiring. <3 I'm sorry your psychologist isn't able to meet more, but try to trust that she understands your needs and the progress you've made. It sounds like she knows you quite well. :) Keep up the great recovery!

justgina

iwanttolive
justgina

Hi. Thank you for your word wisdom and support. My life has been better living in surrender. Not being able to drive, getting to where I want when I want has be difficult. What is even more difficult is living with my sister. Oh boy. I am not my own I belong to Jesus and I want to give Him the glory and praise for what He is doing in my life Thanks again hope you are doing well

lovetowrite81
Iwanttolive

Hi Iwanttolive,

Thank you so much for your thoughtful response! I appreciate your support & prayer more than you know. Eight months is absolutely incredible. It has been wonderful to watch your progress as you have continued to let go & live in a posture of surrender. God has been doing incredible things through your willingness to give it all to Him.

It seems like your experience with your psychologist is different than what you're used to which may be uncomfortable but I am glad you have been able to see growth through working with her.

Yes absolutely-- 2 Corinthians 12:9 says 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.' Where we are weak, God is strong. So grateful for that.

Thank you again for reaching out. Keep us posted on everything <3

-Lovetowrite81