National Eating Disorders Association

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Almost two years ago I started developing eating disorder habits. I would fast all day so I would feel less guilty about eating a ton later, I was starting to want to be thinner, etc. Keep in mind that I was only 14 years old and feeling as though I was fat. Once school started, I began to lose even more weight, got addicted to the control I had over my body and eventually just stopped eating. By January I was eating again, but it was in massive proportions. Then, I would fast until my next binge. My binging didn't stop until August, when my calorie intake dropped again. Now in June I'm still not where I need to be. I'm heavier than I started. I have some muscle back, but a lot of it is just skin and cellulite. My hair is slowly growing back and my body temperature is somewhat regulated. I still just feel really upset about the fact I can't lose weight or gain muscle. I just want to feel good about my self again, but I'm so lost where to begin.

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I'm sorry to hear about your struggle with ED. I can already tell how much ED has stolen from you in the last 2 years. Have you told anyone what is going on (friend, parent, trusted adult, etc)? I know it can be scary, but finally sharing what is going on might be a good first step. Here is a handout regarding how to best share with others what you are going through:

Also, what do you think about seeing a therapist that specializes in ED? With the help of certain doctors, you CAN feel good about yourself again. You can get your life back and live an ED-free life. I'm here to help you in any way I can, so let me know what you think about those suggestions.

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