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It's time

Hey y'all...
I have been known as the health nut and exercise queen but I secretly suffer with binge eating disorder as well as having urges to try to make myself throw up. I have never told anyone about this problem but I know it's time to find help. I am in constant fear of being 'fat' and it has began to consume my life. I am young and should be confident and happy wearing a bikini and hanging out but I am so self cautious that I make excuses for why I don't want to go to the pool or beach and would rather stay home (where I can binge) I am supposed to be a role model and have been told i am but every time I look In the mirror all I see is disgust and guilt. I have a very strong relationship with God and know that he is with me through this struggle. It's time to reach out. I can no longer lie to myself telling myself I can do this on my own. I need help. I need support. I can do this... One day at a time. Please help me overcome this struggle. No one should have to encounter this trial on there own... Not even the people who the world think are the strongest.

You're right - IT"S TIME - for YOU!

Dear Onedatatatime14 -

First of all, I want to commend you for your strength and courage to reach out to this wonderful and supportive forum to seek the help you so deserve. You are right, no one should have to encounter this trial on their own. You don't have to be strong all the time. Just know that there are many people out there (including me) that have walked this same path and are here to support you. You are NOT alone!

Leading a life free of an ED, is centered on creating a healthy and loving relationship with yourself. Therefore, the focus is "Wellness NOT Weight"! Based on what you shared, you've demonstrated a desire to lead a healthy life by eating well, coupled with exercise. As we all have learned through our own personal journey or struggle with an ED, in part, it's about finding a healthy balance of these elements.

Just a few helpful suggestions -
1. I would encourage you to reach out to the NEDA Helpline #1.800.931.2237 (M-F/9:00 am - 5:00pm EST). They are trained on all ED's, and are incredibly compassionate and confidential in their communications with you.

2. I would also encourage you to reach out to a local therapist OR support group near wherever you may live. Please check out these NEDA resource links:

I'm glad your faith has been a tremendous source of strength for you. My faith has sustained me through my ED and many other life challenges.

I know YOU can do this!! Remember, you are NOT alone and don't have to go through this alone. Please continue to reach out through this wonderful forum and keep up posted. I believe you'll find this to be an incredibly supportive site!

Loving Hugs!!

You can do this!

Hi Onedayatatime14,

I agree with LegacyofLove, and I'm glad you were able to reach out on the forum! Help is available for you, and you should definitely give the NEDA Helpline a call, so you can talk to someone confidentially about how you are feeling and the next steps on your path to recovery. Also consider talking to a professional using the links that LegacyofLove posted above - it will help your really take charge of your ED. Thank you for posting - you're definitely on the right path!


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