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pbwhite
Inpatient treatment recommendation

Hi all, so this week my nutritionist told me she was recommending inpatient treatment to my counselor. I flipped (internally- God forbid I show her any real emotions).
I know it's coming from a place of concern and a piece if me realizes she's right. But that other part is saying it's a terrible idea and that they'll make me gain weight. I'm still truly within a normal limit. I don't want to argue and be disrespectful to either of the members of the team but I cannot help it. It'd like when my nutritionist sets a goal for me to hit a certain caloric intake daily I try but panic as that ED voice gets louder saying that the team is wrong. It says things like in patient will ruin all your hard work and just don't tell them how many calories you really ate, they won't know the difference.
Sorry to be so random, I feel like I'm all over the place here. The inpatient treatment centers that my facility partners with are both really good; but I'm an adult, I don't know that the idea of being told when, what, how to do things such as eating is going to be helpful to me. It's not like they can make me do anything including go. But again, the rational part of me does know they're right. Has anyone else felt like this or had this situation?

Freetobe
I can relate

I can relate. I'm an adult too. A few years ago, my nutritionist reccomended IOP then resi. Resi didn't pan out because of insurance, but IOP did. At the time, I felt like I was fine, didn't need it etc. Now, I can see that I did. It's very hard to surrender to what others are saying. Do you trust your team? I remind myself that I am not always in the best position to see what is best for me. The ED voice no doubt will get louder and fight back as it feels threatened, but fighting it is so worth it. I think there are times when the ED is so much in control that we need an outside person to step in.
Are you happy with the way you are living? For me, I had gotten to a point where I knew that what I was doing didn't work and I didn't know the solution. That helped / helps me to put trust in my team. I reluctantly went into IOP and it was the best thing I could have done. Had I been able to financially swing resi I would have.
You are right in that they can't make you do anything, but in many ways, at least for me, that was empowering because I had to accept that ultimately, it came down to me. No one or nothing was/ is going to make me better, it's up to me

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