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LadyT
Infected wisdom teeth

Hey guys,

I guess I just need a bit of support. Also, maybe my recent troubles will help somebody else make better decisions than I did.

I wrote here last week asking how soon the chipmunk cheeks would go away after I stopped purging, but it seems that they'll be here for a while now... After getting more painful and swollen, I went to the dentist who told me my bottom wisdom teeth are badly infected. They said they were almost certain that it was due to b/p, and now I'm going to need surgery to get them removed. I'm sitting here in so much pain, with a swollen face and no energy - and all of it because of my stupid purging habits.

The worst part is, I was so committed to never throwing up again, but I've been feeling so fat since I stopped last week that I've spent the entire afternoon researching when it's safe to purge again after oral surgery. Stupid isn't it? As if it's ever safe.

Please help, I just need a bit of support and to hear that it will get better.

iwanttolive
LadyT

Hi and welcome to the forum. I am so sorry for your physical and emotional pain. And you are right, never is a good time to purge. Your body has to go through almost a detox from purging when you stop. Are you in therapy? Do you have anyone to talk to? I cannot imagine the pain you have now. I know when I gained a lot of weight in a small amount of time, my face was bloated and it was difficult to deal with. But from what I understand, it will go down and once you get your teeth fixed that should help too. I am not a professional so I can not say for certain. Just know that you are not alone. I am glad you are reaching out for help on the forum, to connect with people who understand. Bulimia is very dangerous and I hope you can get help to stop. It takes courage and strength but you have the want to and having the want to is a big first stop. Since you want to stop the purging, it shows you have it in you to stop. When I was self harming, I didn't want to stop. I finally got to the point where I wanted to stop, twenty plus years later. But I stopped. It wasn't easy. There were set backs. So if you are working on stopping don't be too hard on yourself if you are not 100% perfect. It will probably take a little while, but once you have stopped and realize how much better you may feel, you may say, I never want to go back to that again. But these behaviors serve a purpose, to hide pain, to avoid loneliness, to whatever fills in the blank for you. It is important to deal with these issues which is why it is good to have professional help. Please keep posting, know you are not alone. I will pray for you and your teeth. Maybe if you read what you posted, it can help you as you stated you hope your story will help other people from doing what you have done. And it is not stupid or foolish, having an eating disorders develop for self protection and other things. Nothing stupid about that. And the body becomes used to the behaviors and the brain too, not a professional here just things I've learned along the way. Encourage yourself with kindness. Be gentle with yourself. Ask for help when you need it. I hope this helps and hope you don't feel so alone. iwannttolive

DannyGShields
I think, this will definitely

I think, this will definitely help!

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