National Eating Disorders Association

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Savedbygrace
Hurting

Right now I'm really hurting. I'm wondering why it's so long until I can get the help I need. I'm wondering why I survived all that I have. I'm hoping they'll have room at the treatment center I've been in contact with. I don't feel like I'm all that bad, yet I continue using symptoms and acting on symptoms.

iwanttolive
Savedbygrace

Hey, I was just about to check in with you. I do hope an opening opens up before January. I am sorry things are so difficult. Know that we care about you here on this forum and I also care. You are not alone, even in the deepest, darkest pit. God is always with you. I hope you can relax some tonight, perhaps watch a movie? Take care,
iwanttolive

Savedbygrace
Thank you

I wish something would open up before then, too, but unfortunately I'm waiting on insurance. All I want to do is cry. I feel like such a failure. I don't think I can do this. I already ate once today and I don't want to eat again. I used symptoms, so I only ate half of the calories that was in the meal. I still feel like a fat failure.
Right now my kitty is asleep on my lap and we're watching The Shining. I haven't seen it in a while.

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

I'm so sorry you are hurting. Just want to let you know you are heard and cared about. You are not a failure- you are a beautiful treasure created by God. I pray that you would truly believe that none of it is your fault-- the abuse you endured, or having an ED. I hope you are able to have some relaxing time tonight. Be gentle with yourself <3

Savedbygrace
Thank you

So much. I hate this place I'm in.

hermione3
So sorry you are having a

So sorry you are having a hard time. I hope you get a bed soon and can get the help you need and deserve. I just wanted to let you know I care and support you take care of yourself.

Savedbygrace
Thank you. I just feel weighed down and overwhelmed.

This has really been draining. I emailed them and they said now they can't guarantee that a bed will be available. Please pray that one is.

lovetowrite81
Savedbygrace

I can't imagine how drained you must feel. Will definitely be praying over you & that you will able to get the help you need and deserve <3 Hang in there. We're here for you.