National Eating Disorders Association

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Here we go again.

We'd had four good months since my wife got out of TK in Chicago. She'd busied herself with Celebrate Recovery, a weekly trip to the therapist, and a support group of stay-at-home moms. She even gave her scale to her sponsor. I stayed hands off, not wanting to be the food police which just drives a wedge between us. I hoped and prayed this this time recover would stick.

I had seen a few warning signs, but she swore she was doing well, maintaining. Maybe it's all in my mind. Years of broken promises and damaged trust and trips back to treatment leaves the constant suspicion. Then there is that distance she places between us. I can't remember the last time I saw her naked. She hides in layers and excuses. And I just don't know the words to say.

But then the other day we got in my car and the passenger side airbag switched off thinking there was a child in her seat... All the fears and anxiety is back again. Back on the crazy cycle... The danger Zone, the battle is back again. Now the fear and the worry... how long till she goes back? How long till I'm a single parent of 3 again? How long will it be this time? It's so hard watching the love of your life wither away.

I wish there was something I could do, a demon or a monster I could slay. But I'm left frozen. Waiting for the roaring return of illness that seems to suck our lives away.



I am so sorry to hear about this challenging journey you are experiencing alongside your wife, and all the ups and downs that have ensued. It was brave and wise of you to reach out for much needed support, and i hope the links below will be a helpful starting point in providing that for you.

Good luck and keep reaching out so that you can have all the support you need to weather this challenging eating disorder and have an enriched quality of life.