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FearfullyMade
Freaking out over weight gain

The last few months I've been good with my recovery, self love and self-acceptance. Within the last couple weeks i've started doing yoga, zumba and meditation and they make me feel great. However i've noticed some of my clothes are a little snug and i'm freaking out and i'm immediately thinking of the exercises i should be doing to lose weight and foods to eat with minimal calories. I'm wondering if anyone has strategies or words of encouragement i can use.
Please and thank you!

iwanttolive
FearfullyMade

Hello. I am so sorry that you are feeling such emotions. I can tell you that I understand. I'd like to ask you a question please. The clothes that are getting snug, are they some of your "sick" clothes? I ask this because after I gained weight, medically necessary and also necessary for my recovery, I had to surrender the clothes to other people. People from church and those who knew they would fit. Emotionally this was a needed step in my recovery as I saw them and wanted to lose weight to fit back into them, which would be at an unhealthy weight. So I was just wondering if your weight gain has you in a better place physically? It is one of the most difficult and challenging things to have to release clothes in order to be in and stay in recovery. It is good to hear you have been doing so well, loving yourself, doing some physical exercises to strengthen you body.

From your user name, do you believe in Jesus, and that you are indeed fearfully made? Can you call out to Him because in the Bible it says call out to Him and He will answer. He will put your feet on solid ground.

It took me a while to accept my new wardrobe. I can not say step by step what to do except to surrender to God. You are not a number. You are chosen and you are loved. That is where I am at now in my life, is a state of surrender. I have had a lot to deal with and haven't been able to drive for what will be at least three to four months and that is IF the driving school that tests cognitive ability, will pass me. And a bunch of other things as well, such as destroying my scale. A necessary step in my recovery journey. I do hope some of what I said is helpful. I will pray for you now that the God of all peace will surround you and help you through this. Please post again and let us, me, know how you are doing.. It is indeed upsetting when we have to change our clothing size. I am not sure where you are in terms of weight restoration, so I hope what I have said here helped.
iwanttolive

FearfullyMade
iwanttolive,

iwanttolive,

Thank you for your kind words. I wouldn't say they are my sick clothes only because my lowest weight was still a healthy weight (could be why i also freaked out). I've been on the road to recovery for about 2 years now and the last few months have been the best portion of it...Spiritually, emotionally and mentally i was great but then obviously with a weight change i was thrown off. I think i'm so upset because i expected more of myself, i didn't expect it to cause such anxiety anymore.
I do, my faith has helped me in the darkest of times and i'm doing m best to turn to that again. I'm sorry for all you are going through and my prayers are with you as well.

FearfullyMade

lovetowrite81
Fearfullymade

Hi Fearfullymade,
I have been following your post- just wanted to check in & see how you have been doing the past few weeks? Wanted to congratulate you on your recovery as well and all of the progress you've made- that's amazing! I'm sorry you have hit a road-block with your thinking, but I hope you will be able to be gentle with yourself through it all. Keep us posted- I will be praying for and thinking of you <3

iwanttolive
FearfullyMade

Hi again, good for you on two years in recovery!!!!!))))) You have to realize that that is an amazing testimony. What do you mean by you expected more of yourself? Thank you for your prayers. I am in a good place right now. Almost eight months of recovery from all behaviors. A testament to My Savior. Please be careful not to let the enemy trick you into falling back into eating disorder behaviors. It is a lie. He is a deceiver and sly. It is good to hear you are doing well spiritually as the battle does belong to our God. He will stand up and be our shield and defender. Are you still seeing a counselor? Do you have anyone close to you that can reach out to? Please stay connected here as a lot of us understand what you are experiencing and others may have something to add to my post to you. Thank you for sharing.
iwannttolive