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fullsun
i don't know whats wrong with me and i get triggered so easily

pre quarantine ive always had a really good relationship with food and my body, i was the type who never really gave much thought into it and just ate what i wanted comfortably. once covid hit and we all had to stay home, and till now im with my family 24/7. i started getting into working out (which ive never done before), and with that i started becoming a little more conscious about my food intake. i noticed my older sister started restricting what she ate and i felt bad for eating as much as i did so i tried doing the same. things kept going until i developed a bad relationship with food and dropped down to an unhealthy weight. i told myself i would try to get better and eat more, and to this day im doing my best not to restrict because i know how damaging it is to me both mentally and physically, but whenever i see my sister eating really little i feel extremely anxious and panicky and upset at myself for eating as much as i do and i end up acting very mean/snappy to my sister. i feel so bad for even getting triggered in the first place. i feel like im becoming such a mean and controlling person and i want to change but i can't get away from what triggers me, how do i deal with it instead? :(

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Welcome!

Hi fullsun, Welcome to the forums! We are sorry to hear you are having a hard time. For more support, you can contact the NEDA Confidential Helpline: 800.931.2237 (M-TH 11am-9pm ET, F 11am-5pm ET) or use the NEDA Online Chat  Monday to Thursday 9am to 9pm and Friday 9am to 5pm. Stay safe and keep posting.

JustLikeAnyOther
Basically the Same

I get triggered easily, too. I don't even know why? I have a pretty good life.

I have struggled with weight before. It is worse this year

emillyplungong
Fri, 06/04/2021 - 10:53pm

Fri, 06/04/2021 - 10:53pm
fullsun
i don't know whats wrong with me and i get triggered so easily
pre quarantine ive always had a really good relationship with food and my body, i was the type who never really gave much thought into it and just ate what i wanted comfortably. once covid hit and we all had to stay home, and till now im with my family 24/7. i started getting into working out (which ive never done before), and with that i started becoming a little more conscious about my food intake. i noticed my older sister started restricting what she ate and i felt bad for eating as much as i did s i tried doing the same. things kept going until i developed a bad relationship with food and dropped down to an unhealthy weight. i told myself i would try to get better and eat more, and to this day im doing my best not to restrict because i know how damaging it is to me both mentally and physically, but whenever i see my sister eating really little i feel extremely anxious and panicky and upset at myself for eating as much as i do and i end up acting very mean/snappy to my sister. i feel so bad for even getting triggered in the first place. i feel like im becoming such a mean and controlling person and i want to change but i can't get away from what triggers me, how do i deal with it instead? :(
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OH, gosh, it's such a pity you have this awful situation...
The only thing that helped me back then was profrssional medical help. So in case nothing helps I highly recommend you to find a specialist.

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Hi Emilyplungong!

Hi Emilyplungong! It's great that you are posting and sharing with others, however we did have to slightly edit your post to remove links. This violates our community guidelines which you cann view here, https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/forums/community-guidelines. Keep posting!

Tryingtoheal
Why did you put the link back

After it was taken out? It's not allowed and doesn't have to do with eating disorders.