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Feeling so strong

Hi everyone! I'm happy to see this site finally has forums to write in! I just wanted to share, for anyone who is struggling in their recovery right now, my feelings about where I am in recovery. I'm about to turn 31 years old and have had an eating disorder since I was 18. I have struggled with both restricting and purging. I went to treatment for the first time four years ago, and it's amazing how much my life has changed since then. I learned so much about my attitudes toward food, toward other people, and toward myself, and I finally learned how to eat after years of terror revolving around certain foods. I relapsed about a year and a half ago and had to go back to treatment for a short time, and that second time around just helped me strengthen my self-image and my motivation to recover. The way I see myself now, I've been ED-free for about six months (I have had a few slips along the way since treatment), and I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I used to think I would be fighting Ana the rest of my life, but I am starting to believe that she will actually, truly, be gone one day. I feel there is a place coming up in my life when I will be "recovered," not "recovering." I don't think I'm there yet, but I'm closer now than I've ever been. I just want others to know that there is hope for recovery--it's taken me a long time and many struggles and relapses, but I've made it and I know you can too!

You're an inspiration!

Way to go! Your story is full of inspiration and hope! Recovery is full of ups and downs, but you are an example of how those ups and downs can lead to happiness. I am so happy to hear that you can see that light at the end of the tunnel. Your story is such an important one to share, so thank you so very much for coming on here and telling it!!!

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