What am I so afraid of? Why do I choose to numb myself w my binges? What am I so afraid of feeling? At this point I'm scaring myself. The binges feel far more detrimental to my health than my restricting ever did.
I’m so happy you decided to post to the forum. You describe yourself as afraid but it takes a lot of courage to be so open and honest. It sounds like you are struggling, do you have a therapist as part of your support team? A therapist may be able to help you understand your ED better and work through some of the feeling of fear you have about opening up.
I hope you keep posting on the forum and keep us updated. If you need someone to talk to NEDA has a volunteer hotline that is really helpful - Monday-Thursday from 9:00 am - 9:00 pm and Friday from 9:00 am - 5:00 pm (EST): 1-800-931-2237
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Mameegan,
I’m so happy you decided to post to the forum. You describe yourself as afraid but it takes a lot of courage to be so open and honest. It sounds like you are struggling, do you have a therapist as part of your support team? A therapist may be able to help you understand your ED better and work through some of the feeling of fear you have about opening up.
I hope you keep posting on the forum and keep us updated. If you need someone to talk to NEDA has a volunteer hotline that is really helpful - Monday-Thursday from 9:00 am - 9:00 pm and Friday from 9:00 am - 5:00 pm (EST): 1-800-931-2237